I think I’m quitting YouTube.
That’s not the biggest revelation given that I’ve only made three videos, but after making a couple of podcast episodes and a time lapse, I’m not sure I love videography. The time lapse was probably the most fun I had of the three, and I do hope to make more of those as I improve, but the podcast–it just isn’t my thing.
Working in video a few times reminded me of how much I love (and prefer) writing and blogging, and in fact it’s inspired me to approach my blog in a few new ways. I want to write more about my knitting. I want to write more about what I’m reading. I want to write more in general. Writing is my best mode of communication; my thoughts run much too slowly for video, I think, and that’s okay. The number of times I would just stare blankly while filming, trying to remember what I was saying or figure out how to say it was just not efficient enough for me. I much prefer the low-key, low-stress approach of sitting down with a coffee or tea and typing to my heart’s content without feeling the pressure of the silence as I think–in part because I can play music in the background as I work.
I guess to say I’m “quitting YouTube” is a little overdramatic. I was pretty flexible and uncommitted from the beginning. I am taking the thoughts and ideas I had for the channel, though, and planning to find ways to incorporate them here. Also, I’m still considering the idea of live streams while writing and knitting–but maybe I should just join in other people’s streams instead. Maybe I’m not the hosting type for this kind of thing. I’m okay with that. I’m not going to lie; it’s a little disappointing to realize it’s not my “thing,” but I’m also not in love with it, and at least I tried.
To be honest, my biggest concern is that no one is interested in reading my blog. It does take more effort than watching a YouTube video (or twelve, as I am known to do during nap time), and it’s not always as easy to subscribe these days to keep up with posts. As usual, I have a lot of thoughts and I don’t know how to communicate them all–which is part of why I’m leaning into writing and blogging more than the more immediate craft of vlogging and podcasting. I’m much more eloquent in the written form.
I have a lot going on at the moment–oh, how hard I am working on Preptober!–but I want to finallyfinallyfinally sit down and make something of a schedule because, honestly, I kind of just forget about my blog sometimes. I have so many ideas but get distracted by other things (including Finn, which is totally reasonable, but still). What I really need is, as usual, a list. A list and a routine. A daily check in to remind myself of my goals because I spend a lot of my time doing laundry and I do not want to spend all of my time doing that.